What I don't think gets enough attention and doesn't get actively spoken about is that what we perceive as an A to B path, is actually an A to (B,C,D,E) to F path where B, C, D, E can never be truly defined. We aren't ever fully exposed to what the in betweens are so what we can perceive as an A to B path is in reality an A to F path where B through E never gets the light of day.
Do ___ and ____ will happen.
We grow up being told that if you do this, that will happen. If you do this and that doesn't happen, you probably didn't do the first step correctly. The reason why you did not get to this ideal B is because you probably didn't do it right.
But you did get to a B. Something did happen. Sure you didn't get to the B that you envisioned, but we also have to realize that life revolve around you and it doesn't have to follow what you want. There is no tried and true structure to get you to where you want to go. Just because you did A, doesn't mean you are entitled to your vision of what B should be.
I have probably stated something similar to this in previous posts, but just because I wrote about it once doesn't mean it's something I have fully instilled into myself.
I know paths in life aren't simple. But ever since grade school we have been constantly taught that if you do this, that will happen.
It has been so engrained into our minds that when the outcome we do not want happens, we get crushed. We then try to figure out why our ideal outcome didn't happen. We get caught into a self-destructive path where we our thoughts keep burying us deeper into space. A space that we can not change.
The B that we have is what we have. Now, how do we progress? Where can we go from here? What can we do to get ourselves to where we need to be?
Now this is the question that I am currently asking myself. This is the question I have been asking myself for so long.
I am currently 25 about to turn 26. I am unemployed and have been married to this idea that somehow, somewhere work will find me and I will be okay. And that's not a healthy way to go about life.
I have done some gigs here and there. But at the end of the day, when I turn 26 I won't have anymore safety nets. I will be fully and completely independent.
So where do I go from here?
I love doing video work. I love doing creative work. But at the end of the day, I do not have the drive and energy to out-create and out-work others in the video space. It's just the way it is. I love shooting and editing, but there are so many people who do it better than me out there that have that drive.
I respect the hell out of it.
But now where do I shift my focus?
What I feel like I can be successful in doing is being a resource and help build the people that want to out-create and out-work others.
I want to be a bridge and be able to create a true platform where people can create to learn, create to explore, create to create without judgement.
I want to build a platform that grounds and humanizes people's creative/professional journeys.
I want to build a platform where young creatives/professionals can look at someone successful and see themselves in them.
So now it's time to move towards to my next point in my life. My C.
I want to build this the way that I believe it needs to be built. I have to begin learning the business skills and people skills that goes along with a project like this. I need to learn from the people who understand the ins and outs of the media world. People who have a better understanding in order to get Simplex Minds to where it needs to be.
So, I am going to be changing my career path. I won't be going towards a "creative" career, for now. But with time, through my efforts, I believe I will be able to get back to it.
I am no longer focusing on getting to the end game. My C is not where I end, but where I begin. It's a new chapter to an overall overarching goal that I want to achieve. It's time to humble myself and learn.
What I want to fully achieve is something that I can not do right now. It is something that would ignorant and arrogant for me to think I can achieve by just going for it right now.
In the end, I know I will be coming back this post and hoping I made the right choice. I am hoping what I am choosing to do today, will work out in the future and that I will reap what I sow. I truly believe that this is what I need to do next.
This is my journey with the complex. I can't make the complex look simple without understanding the complex. I can't be trying to push Simplex Minds, if I'm not living it myself.
I have a lot of plans for this community. This is only the very beginning. I will get to where I want to be. But first, I have to learn from where I am.